Monday afternoon I trained and then worked Monday and Tuesday night. My oldest son was robbed at gunpoint Wednesday (He wasn’t hurt, kept his cool and gave them his wallet and cell phone). My youngest son’s 20th birthday was Thursday. Tonight I have to go back to work. Needless to say, I didn’t get much training in this week. However, I did review the videos from the tournament and found that I’m stuck in a “vicious circle”.
A little over a year after transitioning from standup to BJJ, I still don’t feel like I’m doing BJJ. In my mind’s eye, I’m flailing about like a fish out of water. To overcome this feeling I needed to identify areas that I am deficient and work to improve them. That was one of the reasons for competing. It’s very hard to identify one’s weak points when you are training with people who are twice your size, ten times stronger, and way more experienced. A competition where I was pitted against my peers was definitely the first step. Because of the competition I was able to identify my technical weaknesses. First, I found that I completely suck when stuck in someone’s guard, no matter their size or strength. Second, I found the “vicious circle”. The “vicious circle” bothers me more than my lack of guard defense.
My goal at the competition was to get to side control and work submissions. My first fight I did get to side control, but she managed to transition to half guard. In my mind I was thinking, “That’s OK, I’ll let her distract herself with maintaining half guard and I’ll go for her arm.” I didn’t seek a dominate position such as side control or mount. Because of this, I was unable to control her body, and therefore, unable to complete the americana or straight-arm lock. If I had taken the time to establish a solid side control, I would have been able to finish my first submission attempt.
This realization made me analyze myself and my rolling habits. I found that I rarely if ever seek dominate positions. So I asked myself why do I never seek the dominate positions? The answer was that I’m not comfortable / confident in dominate positions. I’m not comfortable / confident there because I’m not accustomed to working from these positions. I’m not accustomed to working from these positions, because I rarely seek to obtain these positions. It’s a “vicious circle” that I have found myself. I have to break this circle, and to do that I have to change my mindset.
Why does the “vicious circle” bother me most? I think because it indicates a defensive attitude, which is a mental weakness. How do I change this? Make a plan and stick to it. Let my instructors know about the “vicious circle”. Which they probably already know about and have probably tried to fix it. I’m just very hard-headed. OK, so first stop being hard-headed, at least some of the time. Second, listen to my instructors. Third, make a conscious effort to obtain dominate positions, specifically mount. Fourth, escape guard.