I’ve developed the habit of rolling with purpose. Before I go to class, I will identify two to three goals that I want to achieve while rolling. Past goals have included preventing the guard pass, sweep to knee on belly, or achieve mount. There maybe a specific sweep that I work on or maybe a specific set of submissions to look for. If I achieve said goals, then I feel that the roll was productive. I keep my goals simple and am usually able to achieve them. However this month, I decided to roll without purpose.
This month, I wanted to relax and enjoy rolling. For the most part, I have. It’s just that there is not a sense of accomplishment when I’m done. Without goals I do not have a measuring stick for my success. The premise is that if I roll without purpose, I will find the holes in my game. Then I will know what I need to work on. There is a twisted psychology here.
I guess you could say that the goal of the month is to fail and find out why I’m failing. By failing, I can learn how to develop a stronger game. However, my ego is getting in the way. I don’t want to fail, but I have to fail to get better. So this month, I will fight my ego. I will continue to fail and find my weaknesses. Next month, I will have new goals to work on. I will have purpose again. The result will be a stronger game. So, let’s put the ego in a box for a little while longer and roll without pupose. Even though it sucks.